I wish someone will appear at once to share my hapiness, emptiness.....
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Monday, October 25, 2010
Whenever I log in, I couldn't squeeze anything out from my mind to share here... though, lots of things happened in my life.
Where's my destiny... start thinking about it recently...
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
When I was young, I was dying to finish my secondary school & start college, after college, I was dying to work and earn more $$, dying to marry someone... yet, I have made the wrong choice in life... regret~ it's too late....
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Saturday, May 22, 2010
At first, I couldn't make up my mind to go, reason that holds me back were.... I have to drive all the way to sibu around 5-6 hours leh.. can tahan or not? tyres got bunga or not? how much is the petrol? car maintenance... bla bla and bla...
Sis call me early sunday morning, while i still in my dream... Gosh! I forgot to turn off my hp... pestering me to book return ticket for my parents...
Means.... no matter wat holds me back, I have to drive them to sibu.... no more excuses...
So, I'll be spending this weekend in sibu, having kampua mee...
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
I know I have to be positive minded, I know I cannot judge the book by it's cover.. or on the 1st glance... It takes time.. I know!!!
I'm lack of confidence lah~
He's definitely a sweet and loving guy...He always melted me with his cares and words~
I dun believe in miracle... It's the effor that counts.
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
I wanna be humble...
I wanna be friendly...
I wanna be thrifty...
I wanna be loving...
I wanna be gorgeous...
I wanna be outstanding...
I wanna be a millionaire...
I wanna be a fantastic women...
I want all great and marvellous things to happen in my LIFE...
LOA LOA LOA!!!!!
Monday, April 19, 2010
Wah! tell u ah!! walking on the street ah... like a model on the stage lah... with pride and confidence!!! haha!! (out of my mind dy!!)
Must keep it up...ganbateh ganbateh!!
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
It was such an enjoyable dinner.. We won the best costume of the night.. carrying the title 'SEXY BABES/MAID'.
We snapped a lot of photos of our gang, dancing on the stage, cat walk on the stage, posing on the stage, posing everywhere every corner.. haha!! majority posted at my facebook ^_^
Spare some here for your pleasure..hehe!!
Thursday, March 18, 2010
I heard the experience with my own ears and saw it with my own eyes, a friend of mine, was detected to have breast cancer at stage 2... the moment when the doctor annouced the bad news to her, she didn't cry nor feel sad, she faced it calmly... (How many of us can face it calmly like her?)
Today, she still struggle to live her life happily, she takes everyday as her last day... I salute her braveness and her positive minded...
Of course, she spend lots of money on her surgery, kimo and treatment... so, if you are not under insurance coverage? either u'll be queuing up at the hospital until the cancer gets spread or killing urself slowly by sadness, worries...fear....
So, wat's the big deal of $5 a day to have protection on all that??
This is the picture we took couple of hours ago, she showed us that the doctor installed a kimo-pod on her chest for kimo-jec.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
I took 1/2 afternoon leave today, to have lunch with Carol & Ah Siew at The Hill.. It's so hard to date Ah Siew out for either breakfast, lunch or dinner, it's like striking toto... so, whenever she can make it, dun bother breakfast, lunch, supper, tea break or dinner, we'll just go and hantam saja... haha!!! Carol always said, tis Ah Siew only appear once in a blue moon... whenever we meet up, we'll have lots to talk... from the sky to the hell, from the top to the bottom, we can talk about everything and anything... She's a very interesting lady, she filled our life with joy and laughter...
After we had our lunch, we proceed to have coffee with June and Ida at Bing, another session of jokes and of course, thats where I achieved my 1st goal in life... but, it's also for the good sake of my friend...
Monday, March 15, 2010
On the past, I was so negative thinking... very optimistic... lack of self-confidence...
I always hope to have a better life and a better future... always think think only lah!!!
Today, I wanna step my feet down... I JOANNA from tis dot, I will success, I will have everything I dream for.
Korea and Japan, Single storey Semi-D, $100,000.00, retirement fund, good life companion, I'm coming!!!
Friday, March 12, 2010
As women, u know lah.. sure wanna ask for the slimming remedy loh! but, too bad, the remedy is... to get DIVORCED!
It's so sad to hear that... the society is sick, terribly sick...
Most of my friends are also facing marriage problem now, affair... communication problem... kids' problem.. all sort of problems..
Can't MAN just be more patience and faithful to their wife or gf?
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Sunday, February 28, 2010
I'm mentally so restless, after gone through a broken marriage and a failed relationship.
Maybe, I just dun have the luck and fate, or maybe, I'm fated to be alone for the rest of my life...
Maybe, u'll think that I'm too optimistic... (Yes, I am!)
I always have so many obstacles in life, my friend always comment that I'm like a drama queen... with never ending problems.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Irene brought us to eat the famous Tom Yam Beehoon... damn hot, but thumb up!!!!
My beloved sister, Irene.
My 2nd sister Irene, me, Cousin Amy and 3rd sister Hong Mee.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Finally, received the news from a friend of mine that he actually visited his house on the 2nd day of chinese new year, he says that my ex-bf are doing great, of course having a perfect happy family life with 2 adorable kids and humble wife.
But, in the other hand, he also has a gf too, who's in age 20+, young, radiant & sexy.
His bullshit promises still strongly carved in my mind, I remember he'll always look into my eyes and sweared that I'm his last women... even if I'm 6ft under.
I wonder how many women he sweared the moon to, I feel sorry to his new gf, as she'll be the next victim like me, I wish she can overcome it. I wish she can never end up like me... still shadowing by all his fucking promises...
I always believe, wat goes around, comes around...
Good luck to u & all the best, TP.
It reminded me of what he says... it still deeply carved in my heart and mind... He says that if ever anything happen to him, he'll rather makes me hates him... he'll choose to take the pain himself... I dun blame him, if it's really his decision... If it's really out of his good intention... I rather choose to believe the lies.
I wish he's able to overcome the difficulties.
He's still my precious one. (I know it's very silly to say tis!)
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
I love to stroll along the nite market here too, my sister told me that the atmosphere will be tremendously happening days before till eve of chinese new year, there would be full of lantern decorations. People will still be grabbing at the eleventh-hour.
My intent to get away, partly is b'cos...of him... the pain still stalking & slashing me every now and then. I dun wanna stay back for valentine....
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
The pain persistently stalking me over & over again, why do I miss him so much recently?
Why am I still stuck at the past? Why can't I accept the fact that he'll not be there for me anymore? Why can't I accept the fact that he doesn't love me anymore?
It's so heart drenching...
I miss every of our single moments....
Monday, February 1, 2010
I have so many things to aim in life. When I was young, I wish I can grow up faster, I wish I can be somebody, I wish I can meet someone, who will love me unconditionally till the very end.
What we wants dun normally come around... no matter how we simplify it.
I thanks my ex-bf for he has granted me the most precious moment in my life. The most happier memory, though it's just lasted for 2 years, though, he has abandoned me, though, he might have totally forgotten about me.... I will always love you, TP.
I have not cried over him since a while ago, but every nite, when i closed my eyes, I can still clearly picture his loving smile pampering me to sleep... the smile that catches and melted my heart... I never forget about him, he's been kept deep at the bottom of my heart.
I'll presume that I still have you in my life... I'll still hold your hand till your last breath... I'll keep my promise for you that I'll still love you whole heartly... You are my reason to live on... You are my destiny for all and forever.