Please help me to get through this hard time, I thought I already overcome it, I thought I already managed to forget him, managed to take a baby step ahead to start on a new life.
Why? do i miss him terribly again this few days... my health start to deteriorate... I lost my appetite, having sleeplessness nite.
I keep telling myself that I have to be strong, I have to struggle to live for the sake of my 2 kids, they'll be more pity without me... Mummy wanna apologize to you 2, that mummy always makes you 2 worry.
I had a minor cut at the finger yesterday, the wound bleeded nonestop, I can see from my kids' eyes that they are so afraid of losing me... my son & daughter grip my hand so tightly and plead me to be strong and eat more, they complained that I have been losing a lot of weight recently... I am really sorry, dear... Mummy loves you, Ja & Lia.