FORLORN

Feel deserted & anxiety... Always appreciate single life very much previously... but, recently get so petrifying #_#

I wish someone will appear at once to share my hapiness, emptiness.....

Birthday dinner at The Junk

I had a great birthday dinner at The Junk with my lovely gals friend, thx gals for spending your precious time with me, and the elegant necklace... I love it~ muacksss

Oh ya.. I'm back to my old hair style again... the vampire looks...

I've Never Been To Me

女人最大的幸福应该是自己给的..

女人最大的幸福应该是自己给的,
只是有时候我们会被悲伤仇恨嫉妒蒙蔽了双眼,
一头扎进去不愿意出来.

画地为牢,一遍又一遍地重复自己的悲伤.

其实女人不必如此,不用委屈着自己的心情.

快乐永远不缺少理由,没有谁必须是谁的太阳或月亮,
也没有谁离开谁就会窒息而亡.

学着自己给自己制造快乐和幸福,
用自身的魅力去吸引着别人,而不是死缠烂打地拖着某人.

学着去理解去体谅,
学着去遗忘一些不愉快的事情,
学着放弃纠缠于鸡毛蒜皮的小事,
学着忍耐淡然,
学着忽视表面的不安,
学着深信爱着的人.

女人该做一本让人忍不住读下去的书,
而不是一眼看穿的花瓶.

TO HAVE OR NOT TO HAVE?

Get to know him through a friend of mine...

He's not a local, we only hang out together, when he has his nite stop here... he'll fly off early the next morning.

Somehow, we both have those chemical feeling between us... but, it would be a long distance relationship...

Does it works?

FOR THE FIRST TIME

I personally likes this song of Rod Steward very much...

The feeling that I lost long ago... I might have forgotten what LOVE is...

Does Real LOVE appears only once in a life time..

Little note

It's been quite a while, I never drop any of my wording here.

Whenever I log in, I couldn't squeeze anything out from my mind to share here... though, lots of things happened in my life.

Where's my destiny... start thinking about it recently...

PLANET AMORE

Entrance to Planet Amore, nice ambiance

Simple black pepper chicken chop for dinner with ice lemon tea.

Philosophy~

Don't let someone become a priority in your life, when you are just an option in their life... What's ur point of view?

When I was young, I was dying to finish my secondary school & start college, after college, I was dying to work and earn more $$, dying to marry someone... yet, I have made the wrong choice in life... regret~ it's too late....

Sunday Project

My ingredient for Tuna Puff~
1 tin of Tuna in sunflower oil
few drops of lemon
some mayo
some cherries tomatoes
some pineapples

Puff pastry from supermarket..

Bake in oven 200 degree celcius Yummy~

Sibu..I'm coming!!

Trip was planned by friends about a month ago, it finally comes into reality..

At first, I couldn't make up my mind to go, reason that holds me back were.... I have to drive all the way to sibu around 5-6 hours leh.. can tahan or not? tyres got bunga or not? how much is the petrol? car maintenance... bla bla and bla...

Sis call me early sunday morning, while i still in my dream... Gosh! I forgot to turn off my hp... pestering me to book return ticket for my parents...

Means.... no matter wat holds me back, I have to drive them to sibu.... no more excuses...

So, I'll be spending this weekend in sibu, having kampua mee...

TO FORGET SOMEONE IS TO HAVE SOMEONE

The way out to forget someone is to have SOMEONE...

When you have someone to care, to love and to pamper you, makes you easier to forget someone that you reactionary wish to forget... but, it could be hazadous too!

FORBIA...INSECURE...

Finally stepped out for a date, but.. feel so insecure and forbia loh~

I know I have to be positive minded, I know I cannot judge the book by it's cover.. or on the 1st glance... It takes time.. I know!!!

I'm lack of confidence lah~

He's definitely a sweet and loving guy...He always melted me with his cares and words~

I dun believe in miracle... It's the effor that counts.

FAREWELL PARTY

We had a farewell party for our beloved colleague, Cerren... She's leaving back to Sabah for good. We all will gonna miss her badly..

Cerren, me and min min.

Cerren & sofia.

I miss u, cerren.....

Into the bubble...

I wanna be patience...
I wanna be humble...
I wanna be friendly...
I wanna be thrifty...
I wanna be loving...
I wanna be gorgeous...
I wanna be outstanding...
I wanna be a millionaire...
I wanna be a fantastic women...
I want all great and marvellous things to happen in my LIFE...
LOA LOA LOA!!!!!

Slim down..

I finally managed to fit in my Size S cropped cigarette regular fit pant... after the detox... hurray!!!

Wah! tell u ah!! walking on the street ah... like a model on the stage lah... with pride and confidence!!! haha!! (out of my mind dy!!)

Must keep it up...ganbateh ganbateh!!

Detox... simple meal!!

Had been encounting stomach discomfort the whole day after taking the Kinohimitsu detox juice, so better forbid all sinful food...

So, i prepared myself some salad and breast meat for dinner... yummy!!!

Wanna cut cut cut extra inches at my waist, butt and thigh too.... grm!!!!!!!

AIA Annual Dinner.. FUN!!

Attended my AIA annual dinner at Four Point Hotel, Kuching on 26 March 2010, so coincidentally, it was my ex-bf birthday too.. the most sorrow day in my life... It harked back the damn sweet yet infuriating memories, sing him birthday song, blow cake.... (damn!!!) Forget about him!!!

It was such an enjoyable dinner.. We won the best costume of the night.. carrying the title 'SEXY BABES/MAID'.

We snapped a lot of photos of our gang, dancing on the stage, cat walk on the stage, posing on the stage, posing everywhere every corner.. haha!! majority posted at my facebook ^_^

Spare some here for your pleasure..hehe!!

Live on happily everyday as last day..

My dear ladies friends, tis is a very crucial question...

If you are detected to have breast, uterus or cervical cancer... do u have sufficient fund to go for surgery, kimo, re-construct, treatment or etc? or maybe, you'll be thinking.. I'm trying to sell insurance here, but tis is facts of life... I share b'cos I care...

I heard the experience with my own ears and saw it with my own eyes, a friend of mine, was detected to have breast cancer at stage 2... the moment when the doctor annouced the bad news to her, she didn't cry nor feel sad, she faced it calmly... (How many of us can face it calmly like her?)

Today, she still struggle to live her life happily, she takes everyday as her last day... I salute her braveness and her positive minded...

Of course, she spend lots of money on her surgery, kimo and treatment... so, if you are not under insurance coverage? either u'll be queuing up at the hospital until the cancer gets spread or killing urself slowly by sadness, worries...fear....

So, wat's the big deal of $5 a day to have protection on all that??

This is the picture we took couple of hours ago, she showed us that the doctor installed a kimo-pod on her chest for kimo-jec.

Achieved 1st goal in life..

Since yesterday, I promised myself that I wanna be positive minded.. and I do.. I force myself to remember so hard until.... the next morning when i wake up.....I can't recall the venue and time for breakfast with Carol... pening pening!!!! At the end, gotta call Carol and check with her again...

I took 1/2 afternoon leave today, to have lunch with Carol & Ah Siew at The Hill.. It's so hard to date Ah Siew out for either breakfast, lunch or dinner, it's like striking toto... so, whenever she can make it, dun bother breakfast, lunch, supper, tea break or dinner, we'll just go and hantam saja... haha!!! Carol always said, tis Ah Siew only appear once in a blue moon... whenever we meet up, we'll have lots to talk... from the sky to the hell, from the top to the bottom, we can talk about everything and anything... She's a very interesting lady, she filled our life with joy and laughter...

After we had our lunch, we proceed to have coffee with June and Ida at Bing, another session of jokes and of course, thats where I achieved my 1st goal in life... but, it's also for the good sake of my friend...

Goal in life..

I went to attend follow up for Law of Attraction, was greatly motivated.

On the past, I was so negative thinking... very optimistic... lack of self-confidence...

I always hope to have a better life and a better future... always think think only lah!!!

Today, I wanna step my feet down... I JOANNA from tis dot, I will success, I will have everything I dream for.

Korea and Japan, Single storey Semi-D, $100,000.00, retirement fund, good life companion, I'm coming!!!

Another step ahead to new hair cut

Never cut my hair tis short before... I wonder I'll go more shorter again... hehe!!

The society is sick

Met my ex-college mate this morning. Actually, previously met her a few times, but only recently realised she slim down a lot...

As women, u know lah.. sure wanna ask for the slimming remedy loh! but, too bad, the remedy is... to get DIVORCED!

It's so sad to hear that... the society is sick, terribly sick...

Most of my friends are also facing marriage problem now, affair... communication problem... kids' problem.. all sort of problems..

Can't MAN just be more patience and faithful to their wife or gf?

Or is it our own problem? Not loving enough? not tolerate enough? not obedient enough?

Simple dish!!

It's boring to eat out everyday, decided to cook some simple dish for dinner.

Though, it doesn't looks tempting, but tasted very nice o! ^_*

Vitamin A - Z..hehe!

Chance...

I find it's rather hard to meet someone, who's sincere.

I'm mentally so restless, after gone through a broken marriage and a failed relationship.

Maybe, I just dun have the luck and fate, or maybe, I'm fated to be alone for the rest of my life...

Maybe, u'll think that I'm too optimistic... (Yes, I am!)

I always have so many obstacles in life, my friend always comment that I'm like a drama queen... with never ending problems.

Tong Tong Chiang!!

Went to sibu to celebrate my chinese new year with my beloved grandma and my sister, Irene.

Irene brought us to eat the famous Tom Yam Beehoon... damn hot, but thumb up!!!!

My beloved sister, Irene.

My 2nd sister Irene, me, Cousin Amy and 3rd sister Hong Mee.

I am wrong!!!!

Silly me still choose to believe that he left, b'cos he doesn't want me to suffer with him...

Finally, received the news from a friend of mine that he actually visited his house on the 2nd day of chinese new year, he says that my ex-bf are doing great, of course having a perfect happy family life with 2 adorable kids and humble wife.

But, in the other hand, he also has a gf too, who's in age 20+, young, radiant & sexy.

His bullshit promises still strongly carved in my mind, I remember he'll always look into my eyes and sweared that I'm his last women... even if I'm 6ft under.

I wonder how many women he sweared the moon to, I feel sorry to his new gf, as she'll be the next victim like me, I wish she can overcome it. I wish she can never end up like me... still shadowing by all his fucking promises...

I always believe, wat goes around, comes around...

Good luck to u & all the best, TP.

Heart drenching news

Heard from a friend of mine that my ex-bf is currently not doing so well, having some financial difficulties...

It reminded me of what he says... it still deeply carved in my heart and mind... He says that if ever anything happen to him, he'll rather makes me hates him... he'll choose to take the pain himself... I dun blame him, if it's really his decision... If it's really out of his good intention... I rather choose to believe the lies.

I wish he's able to overcome the difficulties.

He's still my precious one. (I know it's very silly to say tis!)

I'll be away

My suitcase is packed and I'm ready to fly off on 11 Feb to Sibu to celebrate chinese new year tis year. It'll be a long break and I'm looking forward to spend sometimes with grandma and indulge myself with all the local lip-smacking frippery and cuisine here.

I love to stroll along the nite market here too, my sister told me that the atmosphere will be tremendously happening days before till eve of chinese new year, there would be full of lantern decorations. People will still be grabbing at the eleventh-hour.

My intent to get away, partly is b'cos...of him... the pain still stalking & slashing me every now and then. I dun wanna stay back for valentine....

Pain

The pain persistently stalking me over & over again, why do I miss him so much recently?

Why am I still stuck at the past? Why can't I accept the fact that he'll not be there for me anymore? Why can't I accept the fact that he doesn't love me anymore?

It's so heart drenching...

I miss every of our single moments....

Wish

Life can be simple, but we live it hard.

I have so many things to aim in life. When I was young, I wish I can grow up faster, I wish I can be somebody, I wish I can meet someone, who will love me unconditionally till the very end.

What we wants dun normally come around... no matter how we simplify it.

I thanks my ex-bf for he has granted me the most precious moment in my life. The most happier memory, though it's just lasted for 2 years, though, he has abandoned me, though, he might have totally forgotten about me.... I will always love you, TP.

I have not cried over him since a while ago, but every nite, when i closed my eyes, I can still clearly picture his loving smile pampering me to sleep... the smile that catches and melted my heart... I never forget about him, he's been kept deep at the bottom of my heart.

I'll presume that I still have you in my life... I'll still hold your hand till your last breath... I'll keep my promise for you that I'll still love you whole heartly... You are my reason to live on... You are my destiny for all and forever.